Don't get me wrong, I am very happy about some things in my life this year.
- School is going good. 7 more classes and 9 more months and I will have my associates.
- I am finding more time for my kids.
- Business is going good and my team is growing.
- I am eating better and Fruits and Veggies are my staple NOT carbs.
I look at myself in the mirror... this is NOT who I want to be. Intimacy between hubby and I is nonexistent.... and it is because of me. I am not comfortable, I don't want to be touched or looked at, and even though I am sure he does not feel the way I think.... I am gross. (This is not to say everyone over weight is gross but to me I am)
I get busy and then all I want to do is go to bed, then I get depressed because I feel lazy. YES I know I am not lazy. Running my in home business', helping 60 people run theirs, doing a full time college load, taking care of three kids and a husband...... I am a busy person BUT when it comes to getting myself healthy I am lazy. I let excuses consume me and I TRULY do not know how to break the habit.
I am proud of the fact that I am eating better, I can go so far as to say I am eating HEALTHY for the first time ever. I have given up soda 100%, no fast food (Saturday I ate Chick Fil A and I was sick the rest of the day!), and I am making sure fruit and veggies are stocked fully in my kitchen.
I need to be pushed..... I am competitive and don't like to lose. I think that is why I did so well almost three years ago. I need people holding me accountable. I know losing weight, getting healthy, my family..... should all be enough to get me going yet it has not been. I need help.... I need accountability..... I need tough love (yet someone that when I do it makes me feel accomplished and great) I need something to help me stick to this. I am lost and I don't want to continue on this cycle but Im so worried I will. I would love phone calls asking if I have worked out and if I haven't a good talking to. Someone to celebrate with when I do.....
I have thought about trying the insanity work out. Hubby and I bought it a year ago and it is still sealed. I heard it is HARD and I mean really hard. I was watching the infomercial today as I sipped coffee and its crazy but I want that shirt. I want to be able to say I did it.... look at me!
I want to RUN a 5k and finish the couch to 5 k program..... I want to make a change in my life. How, How, How, do I get there.... How do I stay motivated, How do I stop making excuses? What has worked for YOU? Please share your tips and tricks..... I want to make a change!